[dancingbear]

That is very sad. I never remembered anything for many many years. Until I was married for the 3rd time. I just all of a sudden started to remember all of these things that I really had forgotten. I think that is what scares me the most is to think I could forget somethings so bad. I was probably existing in a state of shock for many years. Do you have any friends around you? I don't right now, I think it is ok tho right now. Maby I need some solitude.

[Sheryl]

be back in a sec

[dancingbear]

No yorkies huh? I was thinking about a terrier. They are yup dogs, I like their personality. It is so funny the way my grandaughter pronounces chauaua is che che wow a....She wants me to get one of them but I think they would be too high strung. My daughter has a chocolate lab. I have been checking the humaine society web site to see what they have. I would rather adopt.

[dancingbear]

No today was rather difficult I am missing my daughter and how our relationship was pre-divorce. I have to cut off communication with her and my older grandaughter for a bit. When I start crying it is enough. It is a long story but, today was just a really not good day for me. hen the head games start I need to think of myself. What are your future goals?

[Sheryl]

my future goal is to be joyful , enjoy life and love everyday. And I fully believe that you will have your cafe someday ( I will even be one of your first customers , I will have a slice of apple pie and a cup of coffee please :) ) The reason I believe that you will have your cafe is because you are a very strong person ( I think we forget that) You and I and everyone else that have been hurt are so very strong because we are here and alive

[Sheryl]

I don't think there is anything we can't do.

[dancingbear]

I think I need to just relax the rest of the evening and try to look forward to tomorrow. If you dont mind, I think I will close for now. Thankyou so much for signing in at 10. If you want, we could do this again, like maby Saturday night at the same time. Is this time convenient for you? If not you can let me know during the rest of the week just post what time is good for you. I hope you have a peaceful evening.

[dancingbear]

You are right and sometimes coming from a place of being abused makes us much more human than some others. There is nothing that you cannot do either. You are so positive and that is comforting. I am around constant negativity and it just brings me down at times.

[Sheryl]

I have trained hunting dogs for almost 7 years. If you go to French Creek Labradors Kennels Website you can see what i do. Its not so much the breed as the bond and the personality. you have to find someone that fits you , . I would go to the humane society and volunteer. ( this way you get to spend a lot of time with the dogs)
Get a goodnight sleep, I will try to check in on sat but you can always email if you need to talk
Goodnight

[dancingbear]

Are you still there? What goals do you have for the future? Do you have any long term goals?

[dancingbear]

So you are a dog lover. I like them but I am still more of a people person than a animal person. I have bad memories when it comes to dogs. Sometime I will tell you why. Well, have a nice night...Maby we can talk Saturday.

[Sheryl]

Well right now I am growing carnivorous plants, so thats fun. umm I have written some medieval fantasy books I would like to get published , so that would be a goal I guess.

[dancingbear]

Have you been to college?

[Sheryl]

I don't know if I am a dog lover, its different when you are in a working relationship, you become a team , the dog is a partner and companion.
Once the dog reaches a higher level of training and you can communicate with them it becomes more of an art ( lots of fun too).
And when you are with them from the beginning ( I start the pups at eight weeks) till finished you grow with each one. I have trained and touched well over a hundred and I know every one.
They each have their own quirks and ticks just like people. And the funny thing is you can tell an abused dog just like a human , and they have the same problems, trust issues, fear, aggression etc.

[dancingbear]

Have you sought out publishers for your books? I really enjoyed reading until I feel as though I have read so much my brain hurts.....You can always start out by trying to send small things freelance to magazines. I miss my children tonight. Just a not so good day. Hope your evening is better. Night. :)